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..... Random thoughts... ... Whatever Is...Is Right . Just don't bother me about It.... "Those who look outside---dream Those who look inside---awakes" ---Carl Jung. "When the Power of Love overcomes-- the Love of Power... Then the world will know Peace. .....Jimi Hendrix -1968 Time moves on in a precarious --rapid sometimes tantalizing forward motion on an unknown trajectory... Reality is more complicated --- The mutual inspiration of Artist & Writers during the late 19th century was best expressed by Sacher-Masoch as a moment --a symbol --an eternal parable of Passion & Lust..of the love of one for another--where each of us in the end---willing or not--is betrayed by the person he loves... The Classic constructed dilemma .. ...Sadomasochism... ....Now U Know... It is probably...just as well for Society... that they do not know All the fantasies which accompany, consciously or half-consciously -or unconsciously... every eroctic indulgence...we might imagine... Life is an abstract journey -- From our birth place & even in death... There is a veil of mystery -- to Existence.. We cannot expect life to have crisp sharp clear lines... & It is probably best not to. There is something about leaving a little to the imagination.. The outlines of Reality are inherently blurry.. There is always a hint of uncertainty... Perhaps - the best way to approach Life is to embrace it -- With a sense of curiosity & appreciation for it's infinite wonder... No instant is self-contained...just as no action in a theatrical production or any drop in a flowing river is self contained.. Each moment incorporates... what came right before & what is coming right after.. Everything as a part of a dynamic process.. As we continue to seek to understand... All of creation & How we fit into it... Be open to mystery...not everything needs sharp lines.. We must Always Remember -- That it is impossible to speak in such a way that we cannot be misunderstood -- There will Always Be some who misunderstand... There are at least 2 levels to communication -- The overt conscious message... And.. the covert -- hidden message. The overt consists of words we hear... And gestures we recognize... The hidden message...has more to do with intent Which is something we ordinarily overlook Because -- we do not have the language -- to deal with it Probably because...We should know there is a reason --- sometimes -- unclear communication Much like unfinished business.... AKA-- the past Interferes with our ability to be present So Often -- we must sort out the overt from the covert -- the hidden message... Which usually has more to do with intent That we don't bother... We learn from Tolstoy... That All happy families are alike -- Each unhappy family is unhappy in it's own way-- Oddly enough divorces are exactly alike... ...kind of the samething as trauma. Happy well-adjusted people are all different... The traumatized are exactly alike. Trauma is trauma When something terrible happens-- Beyond -- what is in our own personal capacity to cope with.... Details -- Do Not Really matter... As much as the state of mind we are suddenly thrown into -- A Truth...A Truth we cannot escape from... Scare tissue remains..as broken bones heal -- the damage will be with you forever... So what is Life all about -- Surviving what we survive... Which is also known as the rest of your Life... And so...as time passes... We re-invent Our selves... Sort of like becoming...our selves again. However in Reality -- that never really occurs... we can never get over it. We cannot un-remember such events. So of course -- we can never become un-traumatized by what happened. It is a difference type of inheritance. The Legacy of Trauma Anyway...There is not much time for anyone... As we must All move with such haste towards our goals... & ultimate Destiny -- The inability of men to grasp an obvious truth is a constant.... Where we must spend most of our time... Explaining what should be obvious -- to All Of course -- I am of no particular interest to anyone Since a teenager - way last century -- Thought I wanted to be in a relationship... Learned quickly -- (or should have) That was a No Can Do Situation So Off into the world I wandered... It seemed only in my dreams does anything work out... Nocternal emission...although Nightmares are also dreams So before you think ' we should meet ' You need to know this -- Drugs sex & rocknroll -- not as much fun as they say Butt it does solve some problems Now I am old -- world traveled -- many experiences -- Whatever You may Think... I know I will never find someone to satisfy.... However -- while sex is often enjoyable It will never Be enough to satisfy me Just thought you should know... Before you think I am going to wait around for something special to just happen along When in my experience -- that just isn't going to happen... It's a fantasy & Not Real....there is no happy ending -- No Happy Ending Hollywood nonsense Sexual Reality isn't All that Sexy It is not marketable -- whatever 'They say' Sex is not just physical... As we are told --this is a myth Perpetuated by western culture & It is the way we satisfy a physical appetite... Actually... It is a way to temporarily satisfy a physical appetite... So There is more to This... Life Have had enough lame sexual encounters... Just too old now... Which is the Best reason to not bother.. & as it is... Everything is way too difficult to arrange ----- So Why bother? Thx --- anyway .... --Not a good actor... the scene has to Be Real to work. Fantasy requires no one.... Just an Image --- & there are plenty Here -- Thx Guys ! Thank You -- All... For the video-shorts ! & various other delights & fantasies ! Cheers !!! .... XNTY 9 ..... Enough said --- Thank You |
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